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He sees them together everyday.
He knew this would happen though, didn't he? He knew this would happen one day. He'd known since fifth year that this would happen. He told himself it wouldn't hurt, but it did. It hurt more than anything else in the world.
He remembers the day he found out like it was yesterday.
"Padfoot, guess what? Tonks and I finally got together. I know I said I wasn't going to date… but she is wonderful," Remus gushed. It had been right after an Order meeting. Remus had been wearing a blue button-up and faded jeans. The smile on his face could light up a whole entire room. Remus had finally looked young again that day. He had looked positively gorgeous, and he had gotten the lovely opportunity to sit next to him.
That was the day Sirius Black's heart broke into a million pieces.
"That's great!" he'd replied enthusiastically, wrapping his arms around his dear friend. Remus hugged him back tightly, and he wished he never had to let go. But he did, at the appropriate time, because Remus could never know the way he felt. Never.
Now, Remus and Tonks, they were always together. Instead of his usual seat next to Remus, he was forced to watch as Tonks took his place. It hurt so damn much.
He felt himself slowly slipping away.
Before, he could deal with Remus being straight- as long as he stayed single and his best friend, unaware of the feelings he harbored for him. But now, now, he'd seen the way he looked at Tonks.
He would spend all night wondering what it'd be like to have Remus look at him that way.
"Sirius, you seem quiet today. Is there something wrong?" Oh Merlin, did Remus know how beautiful his eyes were? Did he know what they did to him?
"No, I'm fine," he said quietly, hoping he sounded convincing. Maybe Remus would leave now- so he wouldn't have to keep looking at those goddamned perfect eyes that haunted his dreams- the ones that made him wake up, sweating and in need of a cold shower.
"Okay," he had responded, unconvinced and upset. He didn't like upsetting Remus, but he couldn't tell the truth, anyways.
Might as well hurt you with a lie than scare you away with the truth, he'd thought, though he knew that wasn't the proper saying. He didn't care. He stopped caring a while ago.
___
Suddenly, Tonks was pregnant and Remus was freaking out. He didn't know what do to about it and he'd come to him.
"What if he ends up like me? I can't deal with that," Remus cried, his head in his hands. He didn't respond at first, only held him close, as he still hadn't registered the fact that Remus Lupin, the love of his life, was having a child with someone else.
"It will be fine, I promise," he had reassured, stroking Remus's hair.
He let Remus hold him as a comfort for his problems all night.
___
When Teddy was born, he had been happier than he thought he would.
Teddy was gorgeous; just like his father. He never wanted to stop holding the little bundle of life. Remus was incredibly happy, too- in fact, he'd never seen him happier. Though it hurt still, a lot, he had been genuinely happy that whole entire day.
If seeing Remus this happy was all he needed, he would take it. He was strong.
___
Though he had to deal with unrequited love since fifth year; he realized... maybe he wasn't strong as he thought he was. Maybe something had changed.
He had accepted that friendship was all he was getting from Remus; and maybe that was a good thing. It'd be better to have a close bond with him than nothing at all.
One day, it seemed, that wasn't enough for him anymore.
He found himself with a razor in his hands and blood, blood everywhere one night. He didn't remember how he got there or where the blood was coming from- but he knew he was dying. He also knew that he wanted this, that he'd finally be okay after this, because Remus would finally get to know, after all this time… even if it was a tad too late. No more secrets, no more lies, no more pain. That was how he'd always wanted it.
He closed his eyes and waited patiently for the end, smiling.
He knew this would happen though, didn't he? He knew this would happen one day. He'd known since fifth year that this would happen. He told himself it wouldn't hurt, but it did. It hurt more than anything else in the world.
He remembers the day he found out like it was yesterday.
"Padfoot, guess what? Tonks and I finally got together. I know I said I wasn't going to date… but she is wonderful," Remus gushed. It had been right after an Order meeting. Remus had been wearing a blue button-up and faded jeans. The smile on his face could light up a whole entire room. Remus had finally looked young again that day. He had looked positively gorgeous, and he had gotten the lovely opportunity to sit next to him.
That was the day Sirius Black's heart broke into a million pieces.
"That's great!" he'd replied enthusiastically, wrapping his arms around his dear friend. Remus hugged him back tightly, and he wished he never had to let go. But he did, at the appropriate time, because Remus could never know the way he felt. Never.
Now, Remus and Tonks, they were always together. Instead of his usual seat next to Remus, he was forced to watch as Tonks took his place. It hurt so damn much.
He felt himself slowly slipping away.
Before, he could deal with Remus being straight- as long as he stayed single and his best friend, unaware of the feelings he harbored for him. But now, now, he'd seen the way he looked at Tonks.
He would spend all night wondering what it'd be like to have Remus look at him that way.
"Sirius, you seem quiet today. Is there something wrong?" Oh Merlin, did Remus know how beautiful his eyes were? Did he know what they did to him?
"No, I'm fine," he said quietly, hoping he sounded convincing. Maybe Remus would leave now- so he wouldn't have to keep looking at those goddamned perfect eyes that haunted his dreams- the ones that made him wake up, sweating and in need of a cold shower.
"Okay," he had responded, unconvinced and upset. He didn't like upsetting Remus, but he couldn't tell the truth, anyways.
Might as well hurt you with a lie than scare you away with the truth, he'd thought, though he knew that wasn't the proper saying. He didn't care. He stopped caring a while ago.
___
Suddenly, Tonks was pregnant and Remus was freaking out. He didn't know what do to about it and he'd come to him.
"What if he ends up like me? I can't deal with that," Remus cried, his head in his hands. He didn't respond at first, only held him close, as he still hadn't registered the fact that Remus Lupin, the love of his life, was having a child with someone else.
"It will be fine, I promise," he had reassured, stroking Remus's hair.
He let Remus hold him as a comfort for his problems all night.
___
When Teddy was born, he had been happier than he thought he would.
Teddy was gorgeous; just like his father. He never wanted to stop holding the little bundle of life. Remus was incredibly happy, too- in fact, he'd never seen him happier. Though it hurt still, a lot, he had been genuinely happy that whole entire day.
If seeing Remus this happy was all he needed, he would take it. He was strong.
___
Though he had to deal with unrequited love since fifth year; he realized... maybe he wasn't strong as he thought he was. Maybe something had changed.
He had accepted that friendship was all he was getting from Remus; and maybe that was a good thing. It'd be better to have a close bond with him than nothing at all.
One day, it seemed, that wasn't enough for him anymore.
He found himself with a razor in his hands and blood, blood everywhere one night. He didn't remember how he got there or where the blood was coming from- but he knew he was dying. He also knew that he wanted this, that he'd finally be okay after this, because Remus would finally get to know, after all this time… even if it was a tad too late. No more secrets, no more lies, no more pain. That was how he'd always wanted it.
He closed his eyes and waited patiently for the end, smiling.
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Dean's Sammy
From the very beginning, Sam had Dean wrapped around his finger. From the moment Dean first saw that little pink face looking up at him, he was hooked. This was his baby brother, his Sammy, and he was going to do everything he could to protect him.
On the road, it was just the two of them. Dad was never there, not really. It was Sam and Dean against the whole world, a world that they knew was full of men and monsters, ghosts and ghouls, all out to get the Winchesters. And Dean was determined to keep Sam above the water, to lift him up and keep him afloat, even when the phantom hands grabbed and tugged, trying to drown them both.
The first t
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Afterwards
"Dean..."
Castiel looked up from the paper he was holding with the same curious expression Dean had seen countless times before.
"Yeah, Cas?" Dean sighed, taking a bite of his sandwich, relaxing to the sounds of his jazz record.
"... What is a... SSN?"
"You don't-Goddamn it, Cas. It means Social Security Number. You don't have one. Here," the hunter took the job application from the rookie and started filling it out.
Castiel stood, leaving Dean to it, knowing that if he tried to argue, it would just mean a fight and Dean drowning himself in beer. The fallen angel stood and stared at the record as it spun.
"It's... rhythmic."
Dean conti
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Star Catcher, part 16
Present day (10:48 P.M.)
It had been a long day, and despite the fatigue and the aches on his body caused by nearly getting beaten into a pulp, Dean strolled out of the warm motel room and into the chilly night. Sam, meanwhile, stayed inside to watch TV and munch on the Vietnamese takeout, which tasted a bit weird but it was the only place that was still open and served a relatively warm meal.
Of course, Dean did not wander far as he simply settled for leaning on the wooden railings a few feet from the door. The railings were supposed to add a sort of rustic design to the shoddy motel, but all they ever achieved was to make the building loo
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Ugh. I can't think of a good name for this. Anyone wanna help me out?
Sorry this is so short, I had this idea in my head all damn night and I just wanted to get it down in words already. I'd say I'll come back and edit it later, but I'm totally lying.
Sorry for the angst, guys, I don't know. I'd been reading so much Wolfstar lately, and I thought: Uh, okay. What if they don't magically (no pun intended) end up together like in all the fics? What if Remus still gets Tonks and Sirius is left alone? So this happened. I tried a new form of writing for this fic. This is kind of how I like writing my original short stories that are carefully tucked away and hidden in my thousands of notebooks in my room.
Comments are loved!
Sorry this is so short, I had this idea in my head all damn night and I just wanted to get it down in words already. I'd say I'll come back and edit it later, but I'm totally lying.
Sorry for the angst, guys, I don't know. I'd been reading so much Wolfstar lately, and I thought: Uh, okay. What if they don't magically (no pun intended) end up together like in all the fics? What if Remus still gets Tonks and Sirius is left alone? So this happened. I tried a new form of writing for this fic. This is kind of how I like writing my original short stories that are carefully tucked away and hidden in my thousands of notebooks in my room.
Comments are loved!
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As a big wolfstar fan I can feel my heart is smashing to million pieces.